A few lines from a pleasantly frittered evening yesterday.
I got a new job recently which features the lowest amount of busy-work and license plate making since the early 2000s. Truthfully, I’m not sure I’ve ever had it so good. If I can get organized I’ve got some angsty poems to write about how the past decade nearly broke me, but for now I will look on the bright side and say I’ve got it pretty good.
Another thing which has brought peace and joy to my heart: I deleted practically all social media from my phone and tablet. This has forced me, with only minor relapses, to read books, and there is something about the process of reading paragraphs and sentences and not reading the angry musings of stupid narcissists that starts tuning your brain up for writing better.
Lastly on the good news front – I’m in the process of moving so I resigned from several things I’d gotten beholden to. It’s taken me six months. Time-consuming chores related to a band I was really tired of being in, a church that was working me half to death as a volunteer, etc. Outside of my job I am completely without obligation to anyone as a volunteer. I plan to keep it that way as long as possible.
This evening I meant to chip away at one of my many writing projects that have lain dormant so long that they seem like dreams. I got sidetracked looking around in the attic (an iCloud folder) of documents. Some of them are so long that I forgot about them, and even with the recall assistance of seeing it there in black and white I can’t imagine what I was thinking.
One of my recurring bad ideas is that I don’t have enough time to do something right. Not enough time to practice instruments, learn music theory, work on a second language, or write. But there is time to waste on video games or social media. I’ve fought with this idea my entire adult life (distractions vary over the decades, but the principal remains the same). I’m in that fight very actively right now. We shall see.